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Dreams of Motherhood: A Change of Heart After Conception

Nobody remains unaffected by mental health struggles. Yet, when you or a loved one experiences it, it might frequently seem like you’re isolated in obscurity, seeking a glimmer of hope. To honor World Mental Health Day, we are curating a collection of narratives, starting now and continuing through the weekend, that delve into this subject from a personal viewpoint. We aspire for these essays to provide an understanding into the various manners people contend with such issues, and how they can emerge with poise and dignity.

During my six-week pregnancy, I went on a hike with an acquaintance. Midway up the hill, I halted to catch my breath. I knew what I wanted to communicate but felt difficulty articulating it. A heavy knot of apprehension formed in my stomach.

“I have some news,” I mentioned to her. “I’m pregnant.”

My friend was overjoyed. She began leaping and yelling in glee. I forced a smile but as she hugged me, my expression faltered. My lips felt as heavy as if they were 50 pounds. I forgot the proper way to smile. I prolonged the embrace longer so she wouldn’t notice my face and inquire about my distress.

But, what was the issue? I was wed, had a satisfying profession, was in good health, and now would become a mother. I ought to have been exhilarated about being pregnant; I had long desired a child. Why did I feel dreadful?

Prenatal depression overcame me swiftly. One night I retired feeling eager for a baby. The following morning, I awoke no longer wanting a child. A gloomy cloud of anxiety overshadowed me. It seemed like I had just received distressing news.

In that initial week, I rescinded plans and spent afternoons curled on the sofa. Then, I ceased responding to emails and checking my phone. I persuaded myself that I was just fatigued or feeling nauseous. While driving home one day on the highway, my eyes lingered on the concrete barrier. Would it truly be terrible, I pondered, if I just drove into it? At least then, I wouldn’t have to endure these feelings anymore. In that instant, the notion of never awakening again seemed like relief.

Viva la Paris! Emily’s Next Chapter Sets Stage for Season 5 Production

In contrast, subsequent reports indicated that the fifth installment hadn’t truly received the go-ahead, as the auction page had been revised to state that the successful bidder would “gain the opportunity to spend a day on the Paris set during shooting, dependent upon the renewal of the fifth season.” Now that we eventually received the formal announcement, enthusiasts can exhale in relief.

A Reminder That Joni Mitchell’s Blue is the Ultimate Summer Travel Album
Exploring Art and Activism: A Q&A with Pussy Riot’s Nadya Tolokonnikova

Nadya Tolokonnikova is not someone who wavers. Best known as a co-originator of Pussy Riot, she has—subsequent to her liberation from incarceration, where she was sentenced to two years on accusations of “hooliganism” for her involvement in Pussy Riot’s “Punk Prayer” demonstration at a Moscow church—established a nonprofit organization to monitor human-rights violations in Russian prisons; launched an autonomous Russian news outlet, Mediazona, which was later defamed by Vladimir Putin’s government as a “foreign agent”; devised an ongoing apparel and accessories line; penned an inspiring and just autobiography along with an activism guide; attained a pop star status; and wed a visionary in the Web3 realm.

More lately, though, amid ongoing political activities, Tolokonnikova has been focusing on the artistic endeavor that lies at the core of nearly all her undertakings. “Rage,” her inaugural museum exhibition encompassing contemporary visual and performance creations, begins tomorrow at OK Linz, a modern art venue in Linz, Austria. (The exhibition is available until October 20.)

The display, organized by Michaela Seiser and Julia Staudach, unravels over two levels and presents 11 pieces from Tolokonnikova’s Icons series of acrylic lettering on canvas; six pieces from her Dark Matter series, incorporating calligraphy and motifs loosely derived from the orthodox cross; her imprisonment records; a video archive of Pussy Riot demonstrations including “Punk Prayer”; a novel piece featuring recycled sex dolls; a duplicate of her Siberian jail cell; and five art films—including, notably, “Putin’s Ashes,” which premiered last year at Jeffrey Deitch in Los Angeles, was recently acquired for the ongoing collection of the Brooklyn Museum, and is marking its European premiere at OK Linz.

The initial chamber, “Rage Chapel,” showcases works from the Icons series—among them, the triptych My Motherland Loves Me and I Love My Motherland, alluding to both Joseph Beuys’s I Like America and America Likes Me and Oleg Kulik’s I Bite America and America Bites Me—alongside Pussy Riot’s 2014 enactment at the Sochi Olympics, “Putin Will Teach You How to Love the Motherland,” which observed Tolokonnikova and her co-performers being assaulted, whipped, and tossed to the ground by Cossack militia. The subsequent chamber is centered around “Putin’s Ashes,” an installation inspired by a 2022 enactment at an undisclosed site featuring 12 Pussy Riot contributors from Russia, Ukraine, and Belarus incinerating a 10-foot-tall likeness of Vladimir Putin, with the residues later bottled and labeled. Suspending above the staircase leading to the second level is a colossal inscribed knife, Damocles Sword, encircled by three lofty velvet banners, with Tolokonnikova’s calligraphy reiterating an incantation: “Love is stronger than death.” (Another triptych, Love Is Stronger Than Fear, honors Tolokonnikova’s friend and ally Alexey Navalny, who faced fatality in a Russian penal establishment in February.)

Alicia Keys and Jay-Z Ignite the 2024 Tony Awards Stage

È sempre un piacere incontrare Jay-Z—principalmente perché potrebbe implicare che Beyoncé sia nelle vicinanze—ma la sua presenza ai Tony Awards del 2024 è stata particolarmente entusiasmante. Certamente, lui e Alicia Keys hanno eseguito “Empire State of Mind” dal vivo insieme in passato, ma ascoltare i cantanti unirsi su questo brano vincitore di un Grammy ai Tony è stato un adeguato omaggio a Hell’s Kitchen, il contesto della cerimonia a New York City, e, di fatto, all’istituzione newyorkese che è Broadway.

L’energia della canzone—che è seguita alla performance iniziale di Ariana DeBose di una canzone originale intitolata “This Party’s for You”—non è stata affievolita dal fatto che Jay-Z si è tecnicamente unito al brano tramite collegamento video dal foyer del David H. Koch Theater (un fatto che non è sfuggito sui social media). Tuttavia, l’esibizione è stata indiscutibilmente divertente e ha apportato una gradita nota di orgoglio locale agli eventi, che negli anni passati sono stati messi alla prova dalle chiusure COVID a Broadway e da uno sciopero della WGA che ha costretto l’edizione precedente dei Tony a svolgersi senza copione.

Jay Z e Alicia Keys durante i Tony Awards 2024.

Foto: Getty Images

Can a Vibrator Be Art?
Jennifer Lopez Embraces Her Blissful Singlehood

In terms of captivating sagas, Greek mythology pales in comparison to the legendary narrative of Jennifer Lopez and Ben Affleck, who eventually proceeded with divorce in August following a cancelled engagement, numerous years of friendship, a resurgence, a second proposal, a Vegas ceremony, and subsequently a grander celebration in Georgia. (If you were curious: indeed, I could recount all of that from memory.) Presently, Lopez has spoken for the first time about the implications of her second breakup with Affleck, sharing with comedian Nikki Glaser in Interview magazine: “Being in a partnership doesn’t define me. I can’t seek happiness through others. I must find contentment within myself. I used to claim I’m a happy individual but was still searching for something for someone else to complete, and it’s just like, ‘No, I’m actually fine.’” Later, when Glaser inquired if Lopez had established a “new benchmark for the next person that comes along,” Lopez responded, “Here’s the thing: There isn’t a new standard because I am not seeking anyone.”

Lopez also alluded to her remarkable, white-pants-and-bicycle-ride-rich Nancy Meyers girl summer in the Hamptons during the discussion, stating: “This summer, I had to assert, ‘I need time to be on my own. I wish to demonstrate to myself that I can achieve that.’” Although valuable, Lopez conceded that the experience was also “fucking hard.” (Truly relatable, Jen; even if you’re genuinely and sincerely savoring solitude, it’s entirely usual to sometimes succumb to tears when the smoke detector is beeping, and you have no clue how to silence it.)

While Affleck has been occupied altering his beard color and trying out faux hawks (no judgment: post-breakup transformations—breakovers?—are quite genuine, irrespective of gender), it’s reassuring to learn that the newly separated celebs remain amicable enough to spend time with each other’s children and former partners on occasion. Not to show partiality (I cherish all my parasocial celebrity interactions equally!), but I absolutely appreciate hearing that Lopez is on the path to healing and embracing her solitude to some extent. After all, how will Ben and Jen ever arrive at Engagement #3 if they don’t dedicate some time apart to rediscover themselves?

“Embracing Your True Self: Clairo Talks Style, Her New Tour, and Mastering the Perfect Winged Liner”

It’s approximately 4 p.m. when Claire Cottrill, known in her career as Clairo, ambles into Webster Hall for a sound test. Outside, on East 11th Street, admirers are lined along the block, anxious to claim their place in the standing-room-only location. Cottrill has had a hectic summer, with her third record, Charm, dropping in July and swiftly gaining traction online. (Surely you’ve come across the effervescent, longing “Sexy to Someone”?) Four concerts into her five-night residency in New York, she discusses feedback from the earlier day’s show with her band onstage. Then, after rehearsing “Juna,” “Thank You,” and “Echo,” Cottrill meets me in her dressing area. She opens a pack of Cafe Bustelo, her favored coffee brand, and offers me a cup while we chat.

“The entire intention of having short-term residencies in LA and New York was to have, like, 10 shows under our belt before we start a tour across the rest of the nation and the globe. Gaining that experience and language built among the band is crucial,” Cottrill says, contemplating her first leading shows in nearly two years. Nonetheless, the audiences both in New York and Los Angeles, where she performed five nights at the Fonda Theatre near the beginning of the month, were prepared: “It’s certainly surreal to hear folks singing the words back to me,” she states. “It’s always been an astonishing experience for me.”

Cottrill selected both residency locations for their audio excellence, which she recalled from attending events there herself in past years. “Attending live music was such a significant part of my childhood,” she remarks. “What more could I wish for than providing an experience like that for young people? It’s so lovely.”

While Charm has been delighting Clairo enthusiasts for months now, its rhythmic sound freely drawing from jazz, soul, and psychedelic folk, Cottrill has been living with the record for the majority of a year since creating it in her upstate New York dwelling with co-producer Leon Michels. “I enter recording with the understanding that what I release may not be everyone’s top album, but I believe as long as I sense that I’m evolving and advancing my personal journey, then it’s worth releasing,” she articulates.

“Crafting Grandeur: The Canadian Pavilion’s Glass Bead Masterpiece at Venice Biennale”

“Trinket,” Kapwani Kiwanga’s showcase at the Canadian Pavilion during this edition of the Venice Biennale, exudes a delightful simplicity and tactile allure. This arises not only from the fundamental elements—millions of minuscule glass beads crafted on the nearby Murano island, renowned for its glassmaking heritage spanning over six hundred years, meticulously arranged into flowing drapes that line the edifice—but also from the calming arrangement of hues that transition from gradients to subtle shifts based on viewpoint: soft yellow, sunset orange, white, maroon, and the extraordinary, cherished cobalt adorning the pavilion’s facade, fluttering in the Venetian Lagoon’s breeze.

This enveloping setting, enveloping both the venue’s interior and exterior, introduces a vastness (and sheer allure) to what is undoubtedly one of the tiniest galleries within the Giardini—installations boasting such captivating aesthetic traits are notably scarce here recently. “Contemporary art is often unsightly,” a fellow evaluator comments while we admire the creation. My mind barely dwells on that thought when I catch a guard sternly reprimanding a guest for inadvertently touching the bead curtain: “Each bead is handcrafted and strung individually—all entirely by hand!”

Kapwani Kiwanga, Impiraresse (Blue), 2024. Cobalt glass beads, nylon-coated metal wire, metal elements, variable dimensions.

Photo: Valentina Mori

Kapwani Kiwanga, Transfer I (Metal, breath, palm oil, beads), 2024. Black steel, blown glass, palm oil, glass beads, 163 × 72.5 × 30 cm.

Photo: Valentina Mori

This significance is further amplified by the fact that Kapwani Kiwanga, a Canadian-born artist residing in Paris and the first Black female artist chosen for her nation’s pavilion, perceives the diverse materials she engages with as narratives or chroniclers, carriers of past events, economic systems, and cultural narratives. Her methodology is heavily research-driven; she calculates that around 70% of her process involves research, with the remaining 30% dedicated to creation.

In “Trinket,” the minute seed beads, or conterie, embody a profound history that traces back to the 15th century when they journeyed from Murano via trade paths connecting Europe, Africa, and the Americas. Beyond serving as currency in certain regions (conterie originates from the term for accounting), these glass beads wove into local material foreign cultures, surfacing in ornaments and garments and gaining crucial ceremonial, visual, and symbolic importance. The exhibition delves into this network of commerce, dominance dynamics, influences, and cultural interchange, while scrutinizing the uneven perceptions and attributed worth of these seed beads (for example, European merchants viewed them as mere frivolities), and thoughtfully reflecting on the enduring impact of the transatlantic trade routes.

Kapwani Kiwanga, Transfer III (Metal, wood, beads), 2024. Wood, Pernambuco pigment, copper, glass beads, 160 × 100 × 66 cm.

Photo: Valentina Mori